Friday, December 31, 2010

I get down-like the laws of gravity.

Well that was fun wasn't it?
Tonight is NYE 2011! Christmas is officially over for another year...thank freaking goodness! & I am ready to ring in the new year with a little less stress. I've been going through a bit of a roller coaster ride with the whole fam-jam thing. My mum is going through a difficult time right now, and unfortunately, I am un-able to be as supportive as she may want me to be. I feel pretty darn thankful though to have a few people, one a little un-expected, to be by my side throughout this silly ordeal. Hopefully in time I will be able to explain and with more positivity.

I was able to see most of my family over the holidays. I am a little sad to say that my step dad and little baby Reid, were not in that list. My Christmas was the epitome of stress and I am not 100% happy with the way it turned out. I know I shouldn't have any silly emotional expectations for two days out of the year....that I should approach them like any other. I really wasn't thinking that way before hand..and it bit me in the ass a little bit. I cried a lot.

In the end, I was able to smile.
& for that I am thankful.

After some drama I got to see my nephew Sky, though he was very sad for a 6 year old on Christmas morning...and then my brother and sisters who were all in good spirits. I got to take some photo's of my other two nephews a couple days before that..which was pretty awesome! (See above photo!!). Then we were off to the mans side of the family, which is without any stress at all, a pretty relaxing experience. We all got in our new jammies and had some drinks and jammed out to some Paul McCartney into the wee hours of the morning.

Next year, I am hopefully going to remember the stress and all the effort I put into preparing for one silly day. I will try to remember so that I can remind myself to stay calm! To try to think in advance so that I don't get too carried away and too caught up in the holiday shopping scene too. I am going to try to approach the holiday with the people I love on my mind, instead of my wallet, instead of the hustle and bustle and instead of the sadness that comes with some of my past.

I did enjoy having my two little puppies there with us too! So a big thank you to my guys brother and his wife for allowing everyone in the family to bring over their puppies! haha! It was super cute! I also enjoyed the moment where my love asked his dad to be his best man at our was pretty emotional and a moment I hope to always remember.

More later.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Sweet start..

La la la! Another blogging adventure!


Because sometimes, not everyone wants to hear about my day...& regardless, I want to talk about it.

Right now; I am sitting on my couch, in my new house with three little (silly) dogs play fighting beside me. We have one pup left from my dog Scully's litter & I am, unfortunately, growing attached to the little man. I just got in from a meeting at work (where my boss, who knows I am working Christmas eve, also asked if I could work boxing day..hurray!).

I've had a wonderful day.

A simple and satisfying kind of day.

I woke up this morning next to the most amazing man. We drank coffee and talked, before he headed off to his daily grind. Then I hopped on the city bus in the snowy afternoon. I was just thinking, how beautiful the first weeks of winter are. How beautiful, & how much I appreciate, the bright sun. Maybe it was the Fleet Foxes I was listening to that really made me smile, or maybe it was my warm wooly mittens or my bright pink mug full of hot jo (or perhaps the realization-that I was going to work, but didn't actually have to do any work!! haha). The snow is crunchy under my big black boots, and though my nose is a little cold, I felt very happy just going outside for a little bit.

Again, I am not too sure why I felt it neccessary to start this bloggy thingy...but I guess it's because...the things that make me happy (& I mean, really, gut wrenchingly happy) are the things that bore most people. Don't get me wrong, I live with the person I love & I have a very good friend (or two) that are willing to listen to me every day...but here, I can say whatever I want & whenever I want! & if anyone ever actually decides to read anything I may type, is doing so because they want to...not because they have to!

So! Here it is. My first entry.

My name is Shara.
I am a happy girl who has finally grown into her awkward self.