Tonight is NYE 2011! Christmas is officially over for another year...thank freaking goodness! & I am ready to ring in the new year with a little less stress. I've been going through a bit of a roller coaster ride with the whole fam-jam thing. My mum is going through a difficult time right now, and unfortunately, I am un-able to be as supportive as she may want me to be. I feel pretty darn thankful though to have a few people, one a little un-expected, to be by my side throughout this silly ordeal. Hopefully in time I will be able to explain and with more positivity.
I was able to see most of my family over the holidays. I am a little sad to say that my step dad and little baby Reid, were not in that list. My Christmas was the epitome of stress and I am not 100% happy with the way it turned out. I know I shouldn't have any silly emotional expectations for two days out of the year....that I should approach them like any other. I really wasn't thinking that way before hand..and it bit me in the ass a little bit. I cried a lot.
In the end, I was able to smile.
& for that I am thankful.
After some drama I got to see my nephew Sky, though he was very sad for a 6 year old on Christmas morning...and then my brother and sisters who were all in good spirits. I got to take some photo's of my other two nephews a couple days before that..which was pretty awesome! (See above photo!!). Then we were off to the mans side of the family, which is without any stress at all, a pretty relaxing experience. We all got in our new jammies and had some drinks and jammed out to some Paul McCartney into the wee hours of the morning.
Next year, I am hopefully going to remember the stress and all the effort I put into preparing for one silly day. I will try to remember so that I can remind myself to stay calm! To try to think in advance so that I don't get too carried away and too caught up in the holiday shopping scene too. I am going to try to approach the holiday with the people I love on my mind, instead of my wallet, instead of the hustle and bustle and instead of the sadness that comes with some of my past.
I did enjoy having my two little puppies there with us too! So a big thank you to my guys brother and his wife for allowing everyone in the family to bring over their puppies! haha! It was super cute! I also enjoyed the moment where my love asked his dad to be his best man at our wedding...it was pretty emotional and a moment I hope to always remember.
More later.
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