Hmph.

Well...it's Thursday evening. Josh and Jeff just jammed for a few hours. Work was decent for me...I made some paper carrots to use as a prop (in my studio), got my camera back from the repair centre, knitted two more bows..and well..have been feeling super emotional.

I don't know if this is just my hormones acting up..but every once in a while my mind has difficulty straying from the negative. Don't get me wrong, over-all I am a happy girl and my life is good.

I am feeling a little lonely.

Maybe i'm just jealous?

I guess, the teenie bopper in this adult body yearns for more.

More what?

More attention, more connection, more love.

I have accepted that I am different. I know how hard it is to find anyone who is truly genuine & nice & fun, let alone someone I can to relate to. The things that keep me happy are things that make me unique. They are things that most people wouldn't dare to bat an eye at more than once.

I'm not saying 100 friends would be ideal.

It's not like that.

I guess, I don't even know what it is! My guy is my best friend, but I don't want to be completely dependent. When he is not around, who am I with?

No-one.

No-one at all.

Just me!

Tomorrow, while he is at work, and I have the day off. I will do the normal me thing.

Get up, clean, eat, cook/bake, walk uptown to the comic shop & cuddle my pups.

(Just took a break from writing & ate dinner.)

So here's the kicker...writing this tiny little blurb, has helped me feel better already. Strange right? I guess I shouldn't take things for granted. Just because I don't have many "friends" doesn't mean I don't have any. I should be proud of being myself and being able to kick it alone.

Right?

Lucky for me, this cute boy has noticed I have been feeling down. So now he is trying to talk me out of my poopy mood. So instead of continuing this cry fest, I am going to stop feeling sorry for myself and get off of here! haha! 'Til next time, and hopefully a better mood, i'll be back!

No dawn. No day. I'm always in this twilight (of your heart).

It's been a bit since my last post!

We've been pretty busy.. for the most part having many 'a date night. Watching a ton of Netflix, playing Black Ops online. Cooking, hanging out, sewing, band practice and such! Plus working out! Yeahh!

I don't have much time to elaborate tonight. So instead! I will leave with a couple of photo's :)

*A quick little head band I knitted on the bus ride home!

*RAINBOW cupcakes!! EEEE!!!!

*A pretty photo I took of my sister Rae standing in my living room window.

*A new bag I made!

FINITO-BANITO.

P.S. I'm quite excited for the weekend to get here!! My book Essex County is in at the comic shop!! I plan on making some more stuffz & cooking/baking my little heart away.

Uhmm. Jeff is over right now, he and Joshy are jamming upstairs. I don't feel so well tonight..my legs are really super tired..I can't wait for cuddles!!

Sew Nice! (Photo dump!)

Another update, via a day off work!

Josh & I have been quite spoiled over the last couple of weeks. We've been fortunate enough to treat ourselves to some nice things. Josh bought me a sewing machine! It's a beautiful Singer! He also got me a bunch of fabric pieces, supplies and accessories to go with it. I feel pretty darn lucky to have such a thoughtful boy in my life! As a treat for himself, he got a new Ovation acoustic-electric guitar. He bought the machine for me last night, and already I've made; a matching set of tye dye curtains for my kitchen window and back door (which is in the kitchen). A cute chocolate print apron and a wallet!

Today was so nice, I took a walk downtown to a little fabric store, where I searched high and low for Star Wars prints, but was not successful. The boy is going to take me t

o a couple other stores to keep searching. I want Star Wars themed pillows and curtains to go in my craft room :) I can't wait to make more curtains for our living/dining rooms! We had a cutesy date night the other night too..it was awesome, we went out for steak and some drinks. It was fun and silly :) Joshy alsohappened to pick up his new Black berry phone that night too, haha.

Right now, Nick is over and the boys are playing Black Ops. Fun! Dude is curled up beside Nick and Scully is all cuddled up to my feet, lol. Last night was some From Lambs to Lions practice. Jeff brought over a new mic. and stand which made things so much better. It sounded incredible.

I am sad to say, I am back to work tomorrow. After only a single day off work this week. Poo

py! Although, one great thing about work is, my sister Rae is working in the same mall. So I've been able to see her, and my nephew Sky quite a bit more :)!!!! I took Sky's school photo's this week (he's 6). He's so cute and so silly. It melts my heart every time he says he loves me (Dear Sky, if you ever read this, when you are older...you have touched my life in ways you will never understand. I love you with all my heart. I always have and I always will! Aunt Boo Boo is here for you, forever!).

Woop. Time to go!

'til next time!

Sweet Little Thing..

Today has been wonderful so far!

I've spent my day at home, keeping warm and busy! I woke up this morning with Josh and walked the pups. I was really sad when he left for work :( I don't know, I know I shouldn't be so dramatic...but he really is my best friend. Without him around, nothing is the same. SO generally, to avoid feeling too sorry for myself, I like to keep as busy as possible.

So this is what I did.

I started my day by spending some time outside with the babies (my dogs)! It's still pretty cold out, but today the sun was shining nice and bright! It felt a tad bit warmer than usual. They had a blast, just running around in the snow.

Then I wandered the internet for a couple hours :) Caught up on my favorite blogs! Once I wasn't feeling so lazy, I decided to get up off my butt and do something productive! I played bass for a while, did some laundry, cleaned the house...then attacked my kitchen!

I started off by making these cute little apple pops for my dogs. I am trying my best to give them healthy options for food..the same way I would want. I don't think it's fair that dogs and cats go their whole lives eating junk..I mean really, do you know what your dog is eating? Look it up! I want to at least try to do better for them, it's the least I can do! The recipe is very simple and human friendly. I don't add sugar though, I keep it as natural and simple as possible :) The stick piece is raw hide.

Once I made the puppy pops, it smelled so amazing (I even tried a piece of the fritter! haha! yum) so I decided to make some people versions. I did add sugar to these! & honey, and Cinnamon. Once they were done, I rolled them in this amazing Epicure sugar that I was given (as a gift from a client, thanks Mrs. Cox!!!). The sugar is Lemon Chiffon/Berry flavored (I mixed a bit). They look kind of strange, but taste soo yummy! I don't really know what to call them, they are a close version of my baked donuts, so I guess they are kind of sort of like apple fritters!

Then, I started my home made beef and barley stew. I am making this to freeze in containers for work lunches. I made it all from scratch! Beef, Barley, fresh herbs, garlic, fennel, onion, red

pepper, and spinach too! I LOVEEEE Soup like you would not believe! We always go for beef in barley at the supermarket, so I decided to make a home made version. This is my first attempt and I am 100% satisfied with it! I've let it cook slow, and low, all day. Yummzville!!

THEN, I decided to pre-make Josh's breakfast for tomorrow. I've already packed his lunch up. So to go with his yogurt (topped with honey, granola and fresh black berries) I made him a cute little egg sammie! I've never poached an egg before, let alone shape one! It was fun, simple and quick! I don't make breakfast in the morning when I have to go to work as well. I am just too tired...it takes me a while to wake up.

In between all of this Dave and Liette stopped by for a little bit. I walked the dogs again and continued my laundry. AND guess what? It's only 5:00pm! haha! So now I am about to start my first try at jambalaya! I can't wait until spring/summer. I want to use food that I have grown myself in my dishes. It's getting closer!!

Life is good. I really can't complain. In fact, I should do more of the opposite as much as possible. I am in a happy and healthy place. Thought I don't really know what the future holds for me, I can truly say I am living my life the way I want. When I was a little girl, all I ever wanted was to grow up and get married. I wanted to find love, even when I was little. I don't know if my family will ever find this blog..I love them all, but I've always felt very alone. Half of my family, the half that would have taken care of me, does not even know (or ever will, for that matter) the hardships I have faced. Now that I am an adult, and have moved past those difficulties, I am figuring out who I am and what makes me happy. What makes me happy, is the small things! Like taking care of my little family! Being the best person I can be! and loving with all of my heart!! :)

Life is, very, good!

I've had a good day and I can't wait for Josh to come home from work!! Now back to my kitchen I go! It's Jambalaya time!!

Until next time!

XoX Shara!

TEA FOR TWO

:)

All smiles.

Josh is asleep on the couch, he's had a very long week, I decided to be a creeper and take a picture of him. Scully was licking him and he didn't even budge! I wrapped him up in my R2D2 blanket and have been sitting at his feet with Dude, reading and planning!

I have been so inspired lately! To just, create! Today I made a Menu for the week. I didn't include breakfast because I have to prep some things on my day off. For future reference! This is what we will eat/have eaten for the week of March 6th 2011 :)

MON.

LUNCH; Roast beef and swiss sub sandwich, garden salad, apple & fruit snack.

DINNER; Hawaiian skewers (pork, pineapple, onion and a gala apple!) , rice and brussel sprouts (we LOVE them!).

TUES.

LUNCH; Tuna wrap, orange, yogurt with fresh berries & fruit snack.

DINNER; Jambalaya, rice creole.

WED.

LUNCH; Roast beef & Cheddar sub, home made barley soup, apple & Fruit snack.

DINNER; Rainbow trout, salmon souffle & asparagus.

THURS.

LUNCH; Turkey and swiss sandwich, spicy lentil soup, fresh various veggie slices & orange.

DINNER; Lemon cream chicken, salad & mashed yams (also a HUGE staple for us!).

FRI.

LUNCH; Home made beef & barley soup, tuna sandwich, apple, sliced banana & granola yogurt.

DINNER; Gnocci in a rose sauce, salad and garlic bread.

I don't plan weekend meals because Josh loves to cook! and he is more of the spontaneous nature! Plus, we never know where we will be or what we will be doing. I eat a few bananas a day, they are my favorite snack. On my day off I am going to make a couple batches of home made soups and some breakfast 'bits' for our early mornings! We have started taking Yoga in the evenings together. Who knew an hour of yoga burn would be sooooo darn difficult! I can't wait until I get to the point where I can actually do ALL of the moves.

This weekend I worked. I still had a wonderful time though! Friday night Nic and Char came over. We hung out watched some Spartacus and played Kill Zone 3! Talk about FREAKY stuff. I need the volume on low with that game, it's too spooky! haha. Saturday evening we went to their house instead. We had a sleepover..which I know sounds hilarious. 25 years old and I still stay up late and act all silly. We had a few beer, made INSANE burritos, and played COD Black Ops. We brought our two pups with us to have a play date with their two Aussie's Dodge and Ozzy. They are all so funny together! In the morning Josh dropped me off at work, again. He hung out with Tim and we did groceries at the end of my shift. Then we went to Tim & Krystal's for some dinner (vodka chicken, interesting and tasty). Right when we got home, Josh walked the pups while I packed us each a lunch for tomorrow. We cuddled and he passed out like a little baby on the couch. It's about 11 now and I am starting to get a little doe eyed. I've been a busy bee this weekend with work. My photo shoots have been going very well. I've met some great families this weekend and got to see quite a few milestones with my regular clients. Like little Josh (shares the same name as my love, so you know he's a cutie!), today was his first birthday! I've been taking his portraits every month since he was born and today I saw him walk for the first time. It was beautiful! It feels pretty darn neat to see these families come together, progress and grow! I'm a lucky lady :) My elderly buddy Mr. S brought me some Turkish delights and Mrs. M (the cutest nanny ever) brought me some coffee! I can't complain, even if I have to work all weekend. I get to hang out with cute kids and come home to my little family that I love with all my heart.

Shara, out! ha

I'm on the right track, baby, I was born this way.

HIYO!

I've had a wonderful week! A bunch happened, that I don't have time to talk about right now. I will say, I went to my first knitting club meeting the other night at Lise's house. It was so much fun! Just hanging out with a bunch of nice girls and doing something silly and fun. It was my first attempt at knitting! I am making a coffee cozy. I

already hand stitched a patch, that says PWN'D, to put on it!! I also made a felt wallet (while on break at work yesterday), it's lined with red felt and the outside I sewed little black piano keys with a satin bow on the top corner!! I feel so inspired lately :) and I love it!

Today was a nice day. A very good day! I had a great morning with my man and pups! An easy peasy day at work (I even got out early). A nice little trip to the comic

shop (I bought this great graphic novel called Dirty Rich). Then turned into the domestic goddess I can be, and cleaned the house, walked the dogs, threw in some laundry, made dinner (London Broil; which is ground

pork wrapped in bacon then wrapped in steak, with a fresh salad and our fav. mashed sweet potatoes). Then Joshy came home, we ate together talked about our days etc. After dinner I made some zuchinni muffins for snacks and made a whole bunch of dog biscuits (AGAIN! only this time meat instead of peanut butter! I used three different flavors of baby food and formed each flavor into a new shape..and let me tell you, they smell so good! You can see the photo in front of the new Zombie head cookie jar). Now I'm in my PJ's watching Lie to Me with the hubby while we await the arrival of his brother Nick, and Nick's wife Char :)

If you ever find this blog Josh....

all I have to say is;

I love you!

&

PRO-BONO!

Again, I will leave this post with some photo's!